The place is finally growing into me .
I think I've been more educated in the last 2 months than in the last 20 years.
When I first got here, I wanted to go back home the next day.Mailed my dad saying, "i reached but I'm coming back home".
The only reason I couldn't was casue the Airlines conveniently mis-placed my luggage and i didn't get it till like 2 weeks after. I had paid fees my then and would've been thrown out of my house if i tried anything funny.
I still hate the cold, the snow and the "incoming charged" on phone calls, but I've come to terms with the fact that I have absolutely nothing to go back for. Seriously. When i go back home, my brother will be in college(hopefully), i love my parents but living with them is just not an option for me anymore.I love and miss the comfort of home, good food and the lazy nice easy life but I'm just better off by myself. Most my friends are working, so just "hanging out" for a day would require lots of planning.
I feel bad that I wont be there in July when everyone is in Cbe. I feel bad that i wont be there for my MOP convocation and i know I'm going to die looking at the pictures on facebook after.I wish i could be home when my brother gets his marks to when we send him off to college.I don't like looking at Ten-d and speed plans online. It makes me a little numb. I miss V every time i have a doubt with something or need a second opinion and i cant just talk to him anymore.I tag myself in pictures im not there in just to make myself feel better temporarily.
I think the hardest part has been to come from a place, where I would know someone where ever I went to come to a country I know no-one. I miss just walking from college to subway for supposedly "aiesec" work and just lazing there.
I'm stuck in this weird phase, where I haven't completely let go of my past and I have moved on.
Well, at least I'm moving forward.
Calgary was a good decision.
I realised that today.
3 comments:
im very proud of you.
most people reach this state later as they are caught up in the now, but its better to get it done with and move towards what ou are going to become, rather than catch up with your past later and wonder what you are doing.
cud @ times feel, u voicin out ma situation js dat im still help up @ home....
wishing u all luck n happiness
n ya peace 2 top wid it!!!
its 4 ur gud njoy!
tho im anonymous u gave me an inspiration trust me...;);)
who said u cant talk to me anymore. u dont want to thats different. Just letting u know that no such barrier exists. and yes im sorry this is 5 months late.
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