Im all out of faith, this is how I feel..

I've never felt so perfectly normal and torn at the same time.

I know of things I honestly wish I did'nt. May be I deserved it.
"Reality check" as people like to call it.

I'm not upset nor am I jumping with joy.

I don't know think what to think.

I'll be doing the most normal fun things when all of a sudden a strange numbness passes over.

I go quiet for 5 min and im back to being happy again.

Most often I feel liberated, which is good.

I feel like i've convinced myself to be more detached and indifferent. It worked.

Didn't know i could control my mind so easily. Never felt the need to do it before.

Im just being forced to be that way if i need to remain sane.

Atleast this time I have an explanation.